Reviews for HIME-GOTO: uniforms at the age of nineteen

I've wanted to write this review for ages, and now that it’s fully translated, I can say with total conviction that Himegoto is one of the most unique and compelling stories out there. This isn’t going to be a standard criterion-based review, it’s going to be more of an analytical write-up. Mild spoilers for character development and plot points. Right off the bat, Himegoto’s setting establishes that this isn’t going to be a run-of-the-mill manga. We’re following the lives of college students for once. How often does that happen? College is a pivotal time of life. While students are still in school, they’re given a greatdegree of agency. Most live independently from their parents in apartments or dorms. Students have to choose their own classes and schedule their own lives. Lastly, there are no more school uniforms, something critical to Himegoto’s plot.

Of course, every single person handles agency differently. For some, college is liberating and they make dozens of friends and party hard. For others, college is an opportunity to mature and prepare for a professional career. But then there are the people who don’t want to move on, who cling to their rapidly fading adolescence.

This brings us to our protagonists. Himegoto isn’t quite a character study, but the main three characters are so complex and varied in their aims that it may as well be. First off is Yoshiki. She is unassuming, boyish, and dresses quite plainly, but she’s got more layers than just her exterior apathy. She’s frustrated by her lack of femininity yet is unable to change, as she doesn’t really have any girl friends who could teach her fashion and makeup. However, she has also fetishized her only distinctly female article of clothing, since she always masturbates wearing her old high school uniform. Yoshiki might be plain on the outside, but her deep self-dissatisfaction means that she can change and develop the most out of everyone in the cast. It also means that the other characters view her as someone to take under their wing and mold to their liking.

Next up, we have Mikako. She’s a 19-year old, just like everyone else in the cast, but she refuses to accept that age. You see, she’s a prostitute, and in order to get the most customers, she wears a high-school uniform and pretends to be 15. On the outside, she acts like a ditzy cute schoolgirl, but in actuality every word, fashion choice, and action of hers is carefully calculated to make clients fall for her and friends to not suspect anything. Mikako is a character wrapped in duality. She’s a college student by day and a prostitute by night. She deceives her clients by pretending to be an innocent schoolgirl and deceives her friends by hiding her true identity. She fetishizes purity and youth but also knows that she’s getting older and less convincing with each passing day. Like Yuki, her appearance sets her apart from other girls, but for opposite reasons. Mikako really wants opposites to attract, and seeks out Yuki’s love while trying to hide her dark side.

Finally, there’s Kaito. Whereas Yoshiki generally represses her gender issues, Kaito displays his right up-front. He’s a prolific crossdresser, and in particular he bases his outfits around Mikako, whom he idolizes from afar. Interestingly enough, he doesn’t seem to fetishize his crossdressing, as he hides this side of himself from his girlfriend and only has sex as a man. There’s a couple of explanations for this behavior. One is that he treats cross-dressing as purely a hobby and wants it separated from his sexual life. This is supported by him just wanting to be “girl friends” with Yoshiki and desiring to do girly but clean things like go shopping together. On the other hand, Kaito mostly hooks up with older women who let him use their credit cards (to buy women’s clothing without their knowledge). It seems like he’s only having sex to acquire the means to become more feminine. Kaito is an effeminate pretty-boy, but like Mikako, he’s got a timer, and he knows he won’t always be able to pass as a woman so easily. Kaito is hyperaware of how constrained his femininity is, and as a result he tries as hard as he can to appear extra girly when he crossdresses. He sees Yoshiki’s lack of femininity and vows to teach her how to be more girly. There’s a lot of coded language every time Kaito talks about femininity, suggesting that he really views himself as female. If the subtext can be trusted, Kaito desires to be a trans woman, which totally recontextualizes his character. Although the characters in Himegoto have fluid sexual orientations, they’re still very much expected to conform to traditional gender roles. Kaito sees himself as a woman and tries to conform to traditional femininity so hard that he views all masculine traits with disdain. This would better explain his actions towards Yoshiki – he has to work so hard to be feminine that he views Yoshiki’s tomboy appearance as insulting, and views trying to change her as the greatest act of love possible. Kaito is a truly deep and multifaceted (and definitely my favorite!) character, and watching how he interacts with Yoshiki and Mikako is one of the best parts of Himegoto.

Now that the character’s identities have been established, let’s take at what extraneous objects in Himegoto destroy, affirm, or otherwise alter their identities. Of course, I’m talking about clothing. From the subtitle alone –uniforms at the age of nineteen- it’s made pretty clear that they’re going to be pretty important. Like any good metaphor, clothes can have multiple meaning depending on their type and context. Some outfits promote agency and liberation, whereas others represent shackles and monotony. And Himegoto manages to subvert a lot of typical symbolism.

In most scenarios, a school uniform would represent conformity and order. However, these are college students we’re dealing with in Himegoto. They get to pick out their own outfits, but sometimes there are still old school uniforms in the mix. Yoshiki uses her high-school uniform as a window to femininity and sexuality, whereas Mikako dons the sailor outfit of a nearby high school when she pretends to be 15 for prostitution. In both situations, school uniforms are inherently sexual objects. Do they represent sexual agency or do they represent being trapped in one’s current situation? I think the answer is both at once, which is pretty cool.

Yoshiki’s outfits change the most throughout the course of the series. She starts off a complete tomboy, not caring at all about looking womanly. In an effort to make her more feminine, Kaito takes her shopping for trendier clothes. However, Mikako sees a raw beauty in Yoshiki’s irreverence toward fashion, and is crushed when Yoshiki starts dressing like a typical girl. By the latter half of the series, Yoshiki has returned to her tomboyish apparel. Yoshiki’s case is interesting because her clothing choices don’t represent her agency, but rather how those around her are manipulating her. Kaito and Mikako are both equally guilty of trying to shape Yoshiki to their own desires, but their methods are at odds with one another.

Kaito’s fashion choices show a character arc as well. He initially desires to be Mikako’s “mirror”, and to accomplish this, he buys all the same outfits as her and has a similar dark-colored wig. Once he actually meets her, his idealized image of Mikako shatters, and so does his desire to mirror her. He eventually tosses all of his Mikako outfits and makes his female personas entirely his own.

Alright, let’s get to the fun part: the Freudian analysis, specifically, the phallic imagery. Kaito’s got some pretty strong insecurity over his genitals. Early on, he gets called out because even though he’s a crossdresser, he only has sex with girls and only while he is dressed as a guy. Kaito’s justification is pretty interesting. Extending his mirror metaphor, he views his penis as a “pipe”. When he has sex with girls, he wants to be them, and he views his male genitals as the pipe connecting him and his ideal self. This feels more like a defense mechanism rather than a true justification, and in my mind, it’s a red flag for Kaito’s desire to be trans. However, Mikako has a slightly different view on the issue. She argues that she, too, has a penis, it’s just a lot tinier (referring to how the clitoris has the same anatomical structure). While she may have just been saying this to comfort an agitated Kaito, this penile self-identification carries some implications. Phallic imagery implies power and social capital, and when you look at Mikako, she is the most assertive, dominant, and manipulative female character in the story. Perhaps it’s just a coincidence, but you don’t just start talking about dicks unless you have a point to make.

Before I wrap things up, there are some loose ends I want to include in this essay. Upon rereading Himegoto, one notices that early on, the main characters seem a bit out of character. Kaito is super predatory for a few chapters and all around more proactive, and Mikako almost looks like a different character because she’s drawn differently. Because of these inconsistencies, I doubt that this manga was entirely planned out from start to finish when the author began writing. Sometimes it feels like the story is more of an unraveling more than a straight shot from beginning to end, but that’s not necessarily a bad thing. It definitely means that it’s not a steady rise in tension all the way through, as the drama and tension rise and deescalate wildly.

There’s a fair bit sex and nudity in this manga, but it feels like it’s not drawn in for readers. While the art can be erotic, the plot is so heavy and morally gray that I can’t imagine the author intended it just to be softcore porn. These are horny college students and it feels like the sex is there to add an extra layer of realism more than anything else.

There’s an interesting subplot I brought up earlier of Mikako and Kaito both viewing themselves as ticking time bombs. Mikako knows that as she ages, it’s going to be impossible to keep pretending to be 15, whereas Kaito believes that the older he gets, the harder it’s going to be to pass as a woman. The idea of nineteen-year-olds already viewing themselves as running out if time is a cool theme, and it slots in perfectly with Kaito’s gender identity concerns and Mikako’s fetishizing of youth. However, this subplot kind of falls to the wayside during the last quarter of the manga. It’s still present in the subtext, but I wish it was directly addressed in the story’s climax.

I haven’t spent much time pointing out Himegoto’s flaws, so here’s what I believe could deter your experience with it. The characters might not be likeable. Sometimes their actions can seem irrational or morally wrong, and if you don’t enjoy stories where characters aren’t always great people, you’re not going to enjoy this one. Sometimes the erotic and sexual artwork of the manga feels like a supplement to the character’s current feelings as previously mentioned, but other times it just feels like a distraction. Lastly, the story just may not suit your tastes. This manga felt right up my alley, but if you find yourself unable to identify or even sympathize with the characters, then you probably won’t enjoy it. The current translation has a few spelling errors, but they’re kind of hilarious so it’s OK (“I wonder if this closet is filled with closet just like mine…”). To me these are all just nitpicks at best, but it varies from person to person, as Himegoto can feel oddly personal at times.

I won’t go into spoilery details, but the ending is near-perfect. Every time I re-read it, I stumble upon more hidden implications and symbolism. It’s got a perfect balance of ambiguity and resolution that leaves you satisfied but also fills you with lingering thoughts. It even made me tear up, that’s how impactful it was.

In case you weren’t able to tell, I really enjoyed Himegoto. Rarely does a manga inspire me to put on my thinking cap like this one did. There’s so much to dissect, too. I could keep writing this essay and find more points of symbolism, but it’s got to end someday. The characters are some of the most unique and developed I’ve ever seen in 100 chapters, and its themes of identity, manipulation, sexuality, and possibly transgenderism aren’t often seen in anime or manga. Due to its mature themes, I don’t think this is ever going to get an adaptation, and overall I’m alright with that. Himegoto is a near-masterpiece in its finished state, and I highly recommend it if you were interested by any of the topics in this write-up.

Himegoto: Juukyuusai no Seifuku is a relatively unknown manga that talks about issues such as gender identity,psychological issues, and sexual fetishes. If I had to compare this manga to something already out there, then I'd say it's quite similar to the British tv show Skins, only difference being is that there are no drugs or alcohol in Himegoto. Himegoto follows mainly three characters in college who for some reason or another are not happy in their lives. Whether it be because one likes to dress in girl clothes while having sex even though hes straight or one of the girls wanting to be a "little girl"They all have their sort of complexes that keep them from being happy. This manga follows these three characters as they live their everyday lives and their failures with forming relationships.

I really would not recommend this if you are turned off by "gayish" vibes or if you are looking for something with a lot of chapters. Himegoto does not have a lot of chapters and the releases are not that fast so if you can't stand not knowing what's going to happen next then I suggest you not read this.

Overall Himegoto is interesting. It's a unique story of people with different complexes that I feel isn't shown enough in manga. It breaks away from the social norms and I can appreciate that. It's a breath of fresh air.

Im not one to write reviews, im also not one to give 10/10s, infact, i dont think i ever did for a manga, and if i did, it was once or twice and it was ages ago. If I went at length at what I liked best it would be a spoiler, so im gonna say the following: if you like a slowburn drama about 3 fucked up, traumatized people trying to fix one another and stumbling, figuring out their sexuality and identity along the way, read this. Necessary side note for anyone wondering THIS MANGA IS LGBT POSITIVE, SPECIFICALLY L AND T, HOWEVER, IT DOES HAVEDISCRIMINATION AND SEXUAL ASSAULT.

I truly love this manga, so forgive me for any bias. At its core Himegoto is a story about youth, and the methods in which characters aim to achieve and preserve what remains of it which in this story, primarily manifest in the form of their sexual expression and identities. It's extremely dramatic and it does involve a love triangle, though unlike many other stories, the circumstances and dynamic in it is extremely unique and interplays off each other wonderfully. Every single of the main character's are amazing in their own way, and represent something different about sexual identity, with even one of the sidecharacters being interesting in their own right and offering some entertaining perspective. My favorite part is simply the complexity of these emotions, rather then offering a surface-level analysis of oh I feel this way and hence want to act like this, it instead delves into the psyche and circumstances behind the way they are.

If you like psychological stories that explore sexual identity and just complicated feelings in general, then I think you'll like this. Then again, despite the fact that I dislike matters of sex in general, I still found a lot of enjoyment from this manga, so I would still highly suggest it.

Enjoyment & Overall - 7/10 Overall, this manga tackles on different themes and issues that not many other managka trying to implement as an elements. It somehow shows a fresh concept - makes me value the storyline more, and relate to the character more emotionally. Generally, this manga is obviously not for everyone, unless you love heavy, complicated and emotional content. Story - 8/10 This manga involve psychological and dark elements, infused with heavy emotional content on each character backstory. Not to mention the add-on of gender bender, yuri and a bit of ecchi elements filled the overall story plot of the manga. It started off with each characterdarkest secret, their personality characterization and how they felt about it emotionally. At this beginning point of the story, it seems that apart from Mikako, the other two characters seems to still questioning their sexual orientation and also what they really want in life.

The three characters somewhat get involved with each other, and Yuki and Kaito getting close as they both take comfort in their insecurities and secrets. Mikako felt that genuine love she thought from Yuki and thinks that it might a way for her to move on from her past.

The plot of this story progressing accordingly to fill in the answer of every reader curiosity, and yes every questioned that we had in our mind as reader were lighten up with a every revealation. Each of the character backstory and personality were meticulously discussed.

The mood of the manga gave the reader bundle of emotions, from mad, to sweet, to sympathy and happy.

Overall, its a perfect blend of a storyline, although heavily implemented on such dark and complicated contents that might not be for all type of manga reader.

Art - 7/10

The art is beautiful, though nothing much to consider to be special. I felt that its an average art drawing for me (as much as any other manga) , and no unique details drawing.

The drawing on female characters, somehow it shows rather more details and emotions, especially on the body and face features, its light and relatable. However not much impact from a male character, even from Kaito who's crossdress as a female, it always felt that it contains lack of emotion - maybe that just personal view.

Character - 8/10

The main characters really played they part well in the manga and every character contains personal backstory, reasons and in the end solutions they took by the end of the manga.

Character development was obviously seen on Yuki, in which she had moved on from physically being a "boy" or at least considered as one in the past, into a beautiful lady by the end of the manga. It shows that she chose this path as she well thats who she really was after all that struggles on determining who she should be.

As for Mikako, it hards for her to accept the fact that she was sexually abused by her father since she was young and she stuck with that false fatherhood feeling that she was groom to by her father. Her backstory was kinda tragic which makes the readers sympatheze for her more - especially her relationship with her mom, her distrust issues for people and particularly emotional/sexual attachment that she felt for her dad. It started to wear off once she met Yuki, however then she realize that she began to actually enjoy this prostitution life (which she hates herself for) - and felt that this is how she should live from now on. Although by the end of the manga, it comes to her realization that the father love she felt was in fact a sexual abuse againts a minor, which impact her so much as she really genuinely loves her. Though theories might also add up that, he actually planning to take a revenge on her dad - though that was just speculations.

Kaito Aiba struggles as well with his sexual orientation as he felt that he loves being a crossdresser and the thought of him to completely become a girl also ever crossed his mind. However, meeting Yuki shows him that it's okay to have feminine emotions, and but still live like a guy. He felt that Yuki acceptance towards himself makes him learning about himself bit by bit. People expectation and idol role makes its hard for him to open up regarding his hobby. Though he used to thought he had feelings (romantically) for Mikako, now he felt that he probably do so because he idolize her looks and fashion sense - which he tends to implement into his crossdressing. After knowing and spend so much time with Yuki, now he felt that its his obligation to protect both of them, as first he wanted to save Mikako from her dark past and second, by not getting Yuki involved, because genuinely he really cares and love her. By the end of the manga, it shows that somehow Yuki and Kaito end up dating in real life.

This — to me — is a rare gem indeed, because I can list only a single real flaw of it which I shall list upfront: some of the characterizations and interactions can feel a bit unnatural at times with how easily some characters come to enjoy each other's company despite starting out arguing; that is it. Now onto what is good: I'll be the first to say that I love traps, but hate transgender characters but I couldn't help but love this due to the complexity and nuance to it all. One of the main characters definitely suffers from some form of gender dysphoria, andanother of the main characters in much the same way is struggling with a desire to conform to gendered expectations after having defied them for so long, but these characters are given a reason for this, a backstory, and a nuance where the world isn't filled with absolutes. Many of the characters in this story do things that many would find abhorrent, but there are few simple villains, and they are all given a history, and a set of reasons wherefore they might do these things.

The story mostly focuses on three main characters with one semi-main character and a lot of side characters that exist for the benefit of the four primary characters but are really not as fleshed out. All characters are 19 years old at the start of university.

Yuki:

Yuki starts the story a trap; he's biologically female but so masculine in appearance and acting that most mistake him for being male; Outwardly Yuki loves this but secretly Yuki actually despises this and wishes to be more feminine. He actually loved being boyish as a child but later it became "his thing" to such an extend that he feared doing something else when growing tired of it. He feels he wasted his teenage years being this boyish and one of his few feminine moments is masturbating in an old female school uniform.

Mikako:

Mikako is a female with the reputation of a rich, innocent legal loli with perfect manners who in fact hides a secret of being an extreme misandrist that paradoxically also works as a prostitute to fund his rich appearance and despises the many males he otherwise enjoys having sex with and seems to have troubles getting aroused if he not hate his sexual partner. Mikako whilst being 19 continues to tell all clients that he's actually 15 and hates the idea that there will be a time where this lie will no longer be believable.

Kaito:

Kaito is a male with a reputation of good looks and flirtatiousness that has a string of older, rich female lovers that pay for his expenses but harbors a secret hobby of crossdressing. He is coming to terms with the problem that as the years come and he is losing his teenage androgyny it takes more and more effort for him to convincingly pass as female; what started for him as a childhood hobby consumes him more and more and he's beginning to show signs of actual gender dysphoria where crossdressing is not enough and he wants to actually become female.

Syou:

The childhood friend of Yuki who is one of the reasons Yuki felt trapped in adopting his boyish persona whom Yuki now feels trapped by and finds somewhat suffocating. This character is not as important and more rarely featured than the other three but is very instrumental at enabling many elements of the plot.

Hence the title: the three leads have some connexion to being nineteen years old and finding some solace from being in a female school uniform. It's about these three characters and how their lives intertwine and affect each other — at first, they do not even know each other all the while influencing and affecting each other until a complex web of emotions of love, friendship, and lust develops between them with each of them helping, and destroying each other along the way.

The nuance of most of these characters is splendorous — in particular I said I dislike transgender characters, yet love traps because traps to me repræsent freedom and transgenders conformance, but Kaito's gender dysphoria is crafted in a very dimensional way. It's not a simple story of "I feel female; I have always known this; therefore I must conform to female social expectations.", but the audience is invited through flashbacks and dreams into Kaito's past that explains how Kaito's obsession with being the perfect female came to be — the character's own love–hate relationship with his penis is also one of wonderful dimension.

Plot-wise there is no filler whatsoever; this is actually 100 chapters sans any filler: no chapter can be missed for the story to still makes sense which continually progresses and has a fitting conclusion.

Thematically, it deals with violence, rape, co-dependence, infidelity, lies, insecurity, gender dysphoria, prostitution, and very complex emotions that defy normal expectations. Rapists and borderline-murderers are humanized and develop themselves; friends get into extreme arguments about betrayal and make up again.

The emotions are as said quite complicated; it isn't a simple case of "I love you and therefore want to be in a relationship with you, have sex, and start a family.": one character in particular has a madonna–whore complex and cannot bring himself to have sex with the object of his love as that would defile the latter and is obsessed with keeping him pure.

It reminds me in many ways about the thematic elements of Uwa-Koi, but the execution is superior in almost every, and Uwa-Koi is one of my favorite works. Uwa-Koi had some flaws in terms of pacing, and unrealistic harems as well a too much of a self-inserty lead character without agency; this has none of that.

At least to me, this is a story about being a teenager. Being a confused, horny, constantly terrified asshole who has no impulse control, understanding of yourself or others, that doesn't have the tools to not be shitty, while trying to figure your shit out. It's why the characters confuse any positive feelings be it admiration, enjoying control, wanting a connection, etc with wanting to have sex. And still have to learn things like you don't get to decide what another person is, it is not your job to protect other people when it is not your place, and that you can just leave abad situation. So whether you like the story will entirely depend on how much you can handle teenagers and teenage thinking. And to a lesser extent if you are ok with trans people and women existing as actual people. I am someone who very much can, so I love this. While it is very much not a one to one to my life, I can heavily relate to a lot of the characters and events. Which makes it extremely enjoyable, and comforting. It has been really helpful for me rereading it after dealing with these things and using it to make sense of past events. Due to that it is also very upsetting. And be warned the specific pacing is slightly off. It is a tough read that I don't think most people would particularly like, but it is a manga where once it clicks it clicks.

This manga is close to my heart. I took it up because of its very unusual premise of boy-like girl, girl-like boy, girl-like boy with girls, and all the very convoluted parts of their relationships. I love how sexuality and sexual desire are being talked about seriously in this story. I love-hate how close each character has represented my own sexual desires and tendencies. Yuki's compulsive desire to masturbate, Sho's aggressive tendencies, Mikako's risky behavior, and Kaito's white knight tendencies. It was very complicated up to the last chapter, but in a way, they made sense as to say that I can see no plothole inthe story. Although the ending was somehow lacking for me, timeskip endings do be like that, it was clean enough for me to say that the ending is okay.

It's not exactly a read with pure characters, but more so how a group of flawed characters brings together in. While you may dislike them at first, it explains everything and their motives. Theres a lot of things I dislike however, is that there seems to be no redemption arc, but that just might be the realistic aspect of the characters. However, it seems to be that all the characters just have a simple motive or an easy tragedy story. It's not a story to really be dwelled into, but just a quick 3-4 hour read that makes you think a bit.. irritated? Not because ofthe character's, but just because.. It just drags it on for so long.

I just finished reading this manga for the second time. I NEVER re-read mangas, but I love this one so much that I can't help but keep reading again. The story is beautiful with the perfect combination of tragedy, drama, sensuality, wholesomeness, emotions and suspense. The three main characters of the story are so complex and very fascinating to read about. Their identities are so unique but you can't help but relate to them. Their storylines also blend perfectly together and nothing ever seems out of place. But what I like the most about this manga is the fact that it's very respectful about theidentities and sexualities of the characters in the story which, unfortunately I don't always see in mangas/animes. Usually sexual scenes are overexploited in anime and mostly used for the sake of having it that's why when I first read this I was surprised by how the author handled the "confusing" sexual identifications and sensuality of the characters with seriousness and respect. This is probably my favorite manga ever to read yet and I am so happy to have found this gem.

This is probably one of my top manga/anime of all time. It just manages to find the perfect balance between deep and wholesome story telling in a way that makes every act of carefully sprinkled drama seem satisfying. I highly recommend this to anyone who is looking for a drama-oriented story. it would be great for people who are reluctant to get into the psychological genre as you get a fairly safe perspective to view the story from. the characters do have harsh experiences but the fact that there's always someone supporting the main cast when they're down means that there's a certain level of comfortto accompany the deeper themes.

Tôi đã đọc liên tục bộ truyện này không ngừng nghỉ. Mặc dù có quá nhiều vấn đề được đề cập đến, như tình bạn, tình yêu, xu hướng tính dục, trauma,... nhưng mọi thứ đều được phát triển và giải quyết hợp lý, và vô cùng liên kết. Các chi tiết nhạy cảm xuất hiện khá nhiều, có thể nói rằng đó là một trong những nội dung trong tâm của bộ truyện, nhưng như tôi đã đề cập, chúng đều xuất hiện vì một mục đích nào đó liên quan đến sự phát triển nhân vật. Cũng vì vậy mà khi đọc, nhữngchi tiết ấy không hề làm tôi phân tâm hay khó chịu.

Cái kết quả thực rất hoàn mỹ. Các nhân vật đều đã tìm được chính mình, thoát khỏi những kìm cặp mà trước đó họ không thể nào thoát ra.

Ngoài ra thì tôi rất thích Kaito. Tui thích cách cậu ấy tôn trọng Yuki, thích cách cậu ấy làm Yuki tốt hơn từng ngày, thích cách cậu ấy trân trọng tình bạn giữa hai người họ, sự trân thành, sự can đảm của cậu ấy khi tình nguyện ở cạnh Mikako kể cả khi cậu ấy không còn hoàn hảo như trong tưởng tượng của cậu ấy.

Cậu ấy ngay từ đầu đã không cần là sự phản chiếu của một cô gái hoàn hảo nào khác.

Có điều tôi vẫn khá thắc mắc về mối quan hệ giữa Yuki và Kaito. Có lẽ họ đã thực sự trở thành một cặp? Tôi mong vậy

a story about teenagers who are "stuck" and trying to find a way to cope with it. Yoshiki or Yuki, wants to get rid of the "tomboy" sticker. Mikako, who always feels guilty even though she's the victim. Kaito who seeks perfection in others

I have been reading this series non-stop. Although there are too many issues mentioned, such as friendship, love, sexual orientation, trauma, etc., everything is properly developed and resolved, and extremely connected. Sensitive details appear quite a lot, it can be said that it is one of the central content of the series, but as I mentioned, they all appear for some purpose related to development. figure. Because of that, when reading, those details did not distract or upset me.

The result is really perfect. The characters have all found themselves, freed from the grips that they could not get out of before.

However, I am still quite curious about the relationship between Yuki and Kaito. Maybe they really became a couple? I hope so

Other than that, I really like Kaito. I love how he respects Yuki, how he makes Yuki better day by day, how he appreciates their friendship, his sincerity, his courage when he volunteered to be by Mikako's side. even if he's not as perfect as he imagined.

He didn't need to be the mirror image of another perfect girl from the start.

Not an easy recommend, but I found it an interesting and very earnest expression of angst about battling the feelings of how the inevitability becoming more masculine with age and wrestling with rather wretched feelings and trauma can lead people to finding solidarity in the strangest of places. There's similar works which I think manage many parts better, but I think few of them really lean into the feelings of the sexual manifestations of self-destruction and disgust in the same way that this one does. There's definitely a fair few scenes to roll your eyes at, and the characters in many ways feel flat, butin that sense it's easier to imagine as a sort of exaggerated morality play where sex is used to convey ideas of trauma and helplessness. At any rate, I really appreciate its earnestness as an artwork - and I actually really liked the portrayal of Kaito's identity as more than just some strange fetish.

I'm not gonna lie when I say that this was quite an angstfest. And although I'm not really turned off with that kind of approach, it's a double-edged sword especially with how the series tackled its themes. Like for one, it sets up interesting conflicts with its three main characters. However, I wish I could say that I enjoyed how all of it played throughout the manga's run. As it went on, there's this idea of "I don't like doing this thing I'm doing but it's for the sake of the other person so I have to keep doing it". While I could see that bringingin juicy drama, and that I was definitely into it at the start, I felt that it dragged on a bit too much and made it too complicated for my taste due to how this idea kept stacking on itself unnecessarily.

Regarding the themes, I liked how it handled gender identity and expression, particularly through Kaito and Yuki's exploration towards femininity. Their dynamic was, by far, the best in the series and what made me continue. Mikako on the other hand, had a more darker conflict and it's on-brand for something like that to leak into the situations of her peers, for better or for worse.

The latter half of the manga really made a few things sour for me, due to the previously mentioned length and certain plotlines feeling unsatisfying. An example would be the lack of screentime for Nemoto due to his wrong deed being sidelined for the main trio's angst, and only bringing him back near the end without much acknowledgement for the double down of his situation. Another example would be what came after the double down, in which all three leads lived together, setting the final arc for the manga. And lastly, the resolution of Mikako's arc. It rubbed me the wrong way when the epilogue handwaved her situation, fully acknowledging her devolution.

All in all, teenagers are assholes with some being more than others, and this manga encapsulates that. It just so happens that the presentation's enticement is outweighed by the manga's irritating scenarios.

Pros: - The twists and turns in the plot was engaging and kept the story fresh. Every time I thought I had everything figured out and could predict where the story was heading, it found a way to surprise me. - The characters are well drawn and the backgrounds are not bad. - The story resolves around character motivations and development, which is a great storytelling device. - Two of the characters are delightfully broken people, who has chosen ridiculus coping strategies. These characters hard carries this manga, with the MC as an enabler and supporter, caught in the crosshairs. Cons: - The main character is not unlikeable, but she is...being dramatic about her live? The 2 important sidecharacters have very real issues for their behavior and overshadow the MC in every regard. And I must reiterate, that Yuki/Yoshiki isn't a badly designed character, she just pales in comparison to Kaito and Mikaka.

- This story was flirting with the traumatic tag at points, but shied away from making it more central. Instead we got more drama, which is also fine, but I wonder how hard the author could have gone on the trauma.

- Sometimes, the twists and turns in the plot made some character motivations appear very obscure. That is realistic, but not always as engaging to follow.

- The ending deserved more closure for one character, that was left unresolved.

Summary:

I was engaged and liked plenty of elements, but I will never reread this. It is good enough to be apart of the slob tier mangas (4/10 - 6/10) so someone will like this a lot more than me and others will be completely uninterested. I am giving it a mixed recommendation. It isn't high art, but it is still engaging. Try it for 5-8 chapters. If you don't like that, then this isn't for you.

Therapy and a poly relationship could have saved us the drama. I don't even know what to say.. I've read many gender bender/love triangle manga and this one felt like the worst one of all.. so many unnecessary explicit scenes and for what?? I know I know it's a manga about sexuality why wouldn't it showcase that yeh- but lemme break it down.. To start off at the beginning of the Manga majority of Mikako's scenes has her "working" her "customers" scene until the mangaka realized she was supposed to be a main character as well with real dialogue and importance. Her backstory being shovedin towards the very end was laughable to me.

Kaito is described as good looking but I honestly couldn't see it so I didn't get the hype. And his character took a nose dive after he found out about mikako side hustle and never really recovered in my eyes. Like you're literally doing the same thing why are you suddenly a moral center??? His explicit scenes were whatever not as overdone as mikako

Yuki was dragged into all this mess and I wish she cut them off sooner but girlie was freaky too. I got bored of the "only hot and heavy in uniform" kink and I found it hard to relate to her feelings towards Kaito and Mikato, as her role in the narrative felt inconsistent.

In the end I guess all three of them matched each others freak but was that enough to salvage it? No it still sucked

A captivating, terrible manga that is not worth your time. Each character is meant to be unlikable in their own way, but just about everyone is truly atrocious. Eerily real sexual assault occurs often with little time for contemplation. In fact, characters often don't seem to make a big deal about how they were just assaulted. It's odd and makes the story feel disjointed while simultaneously making the characters (most of whom are victims at one time or another) hard to root for in any way. I'm all for scary and difficult topics, especially regarding sex, but this manga doesn't explore these things in an interestingway.

That's the main problem. The art is often quite good, the character designs are interesting, and surprisingly, the author does a good job instilling a sense of place.

I say captivating at the top because the drama is ridiculous and over the top, but kind of relatable in some ways for a little bit. Things quickly get out of hand though with truly massive levels of misunderstandings. This is okay for a bit, but drags for so long in the middle. So very long.

I'm also all for depicting messy queer characters, but wow, all three of the main characters are so very bizarre. I'm always a little sensitive to trans depictions in media, being that I'm trans myself, but wow, the trans character in this manga is truly horrific. It doesn't help that she is often just a series of scary stereotypes, the likes of which are typically peddled by hate groups.

Anyways, don't read this. Go read something else. There's plenty of great media with awful queer characters out there. This isn't it.

This manga was honestly the most insane I've read to date, the character motivations are so fucked up, I kept reading because I was so invested and needed to know wtf was going on but I was honestly so frustrated, disgusted and annoyed reading this. So much drama and coercion so if you're not into that I definitely would not recommend, if you like that type of thing this will be right up your alley. Overall very engaging story with a lot of drama. Art was good. Each character was very multifaceted with well built personalities. I however did not enjoy the excess of manipulation,coercion and drama which is why my score was lowered.

I picked this up as I thought it was going to provide a very insightful aspect on gender issues. What I ended up getting was a manga version of Young and the Restless. Convoluted plots, contradicting circumstances, drawn out plots, etc. For instance, one of the biggest points of contention was when Sho (side character) sexually assaulted Yuki (main character). But didn't the main love interests (Mikako and Kaito) also sexually assault Yuki??? So um why is it bad in one case and not the others??? This point alone made it very difficult for me to get into the story but I kept on reading...doesn't improve. I do not recommend reading.